Your Mind

Lack of wholeness
At the bottom I linger
Waiting to be disposed
Waiting to be exposed
Out of secret thoughts
That I belong to you

I slide down from the sides
Of your mind that keeps me
Locked in a room in waiting
To be freed or transferred
To an accomodation more suiting
Comforting for us both

Your test I cannot bear
For I am too stubborn to pass
Stop opening the door ajar!
Only to quickly shut it
When you see me run for
An escape to let everyone know

Where we are, or how we stand
Hoping we stand at all
I am no other than one
Who carries this torch
Will you help me
Stand by my side?

When it burdens me
Take up the slack
Just as I will do the same for you
But I still remain hidden
From your words, vital
Left wondering

How many beats remain
Of this heart before pain
Can bleed away through my tears
A release I yearn to feel

Only you determine my future
You know not which day
I'll wait behind your door ajar
To pull you to me

Hold you close, and never let you go
Show you my heart
Am I in yours?


©05 J. Polino

Leveled

I fought like Hades
To obtain a level of self-worth
That I was broken from
Long ago
Suddenly, I am the toy
Now I am accused of self-pity
Using stubborness as my shield
Astonished I am
Are you one
Not understanding the woes
Most suffer from?
Day-to-day
Means absolutely shit
To those who have not
The karmic cycle
Follows hard
Toward uncompassionate
Insensitivity
Deafened ears
Hearts turned to stone


©2006 J. Polino